Tag: consciousness

  • You Are Consciousness

    You Are Consciousness

    Con-chi/sci-ous-ness…

    Con: context, The ultimately unchanging presence which is integral to all activities and behaviors. The canvas, so to speak, with free, spontaneous, agency.

    Chi/Sci: all behaviors within the context, i.e., chi, living energy dynamics, chaim, life, that which appears to be changing. Western culture emphasizes the witnessing awareness aspect of consciousness, but it must be recognized that the flow of witnessing must start with the behavior to be witnessed. It is impossible to have witnessing awareness without something to be witnessed! Subjectivity and objectivity are an inseparable oneness!

    Ous: full of

    Ness: presence

    Consciousness: a presence and integral context filled with its own behavior, including end-to-end objectivity and subjectivity. The mind alone is not consciousness! A mind cannot exist without its environment and objectivity. Collectively, the activity of objectivity and subjectivity occurring within the integral context uniting them is Consciousness.

    Consciousness is, in essence, infinite presence with the power, or agency, to perform or behave and yet, remain unchanged. Quick, picture an apple. Did your Consciousness actually change even though it temporarily performed as an apple? You are That, and when seen in its essence, reality is also That. We call the behavior of reality its nature. Since our Consciousness shares the same presence as reality, and no qualities of space and time can separate our consciousness from reality, it can be said that they are one and the same. In truth, there is only That unchanging, aka Real, presence with power, or agency, or Consciousness, performing as this, the known universe. The question is, what are you? Are you the Presence with agency, Consciousness, or an effect of the agency? You have to figure this out for yourself. I know for myself that I am the agent of reality performing as this body and everything I see as well as the awareness that perceives it.

    The Agent performing behind a rock and the Agent perceiving the rock are one and the same. Only the Agent behind the entire flow of awareness is ultimately Real, always remaining presence and unchanged. Everything else, including everything made of so-called energy, is its behavior.

    The human mind is in the habit of measuring and objectifying dynamic natures, or behaviors, and separating them from their original source presence and Agent. For instance, they perceive a body as separate from its original source agent even though it is occurring within the presence aspect of the presence of that Agent. The issue is that that Agent cannot be seen because it’s infinite, or without definition. Consciousness cannot be seen because it is the performer or cause of the finite but it itself is infinite or without definition. You are That but don’t take my word for it!

    Lila, play or sport or drama, is a word that describes the quality of the behavior of Reality, or all-inclusive Consciousness. Spanda, or spontaneous bubbling up, is another. Vimarsha, Self-Reflection, is another. Energy dynamics is yet another. These are all words that describe the behavior of Reality, Consciousness, your true Self, based on surface appearances which are born when the Agent performing as witnessing awareness perceives the result of Their own behavior on the surface without seeing Their own Self as the Agent behind all movements and their witnessing. In other words, Reality, or all-inclusive Consciousness, is behaving as all movement and phenomena within objective reality, as well as, the dynamic movement that emerged as witnessing awareness, however only the Presence and Always Real Agent aspect, all-inclusive Consciousness, You, has ever ultimately existed. What is happening is happening but it’s changing and temporarily, and therefore ultimately the opposite of real. You are the Consciousness, the Presence and Always Real Agent, not the flow of witnessing awareness which is Your temporary behavior, but the singular Agent always hiding behind those behaviors.

    Dreaming consciousness is a perfect analogy. Consciousness, when dreaming, is performing as the environment and all of the roles including the witnessing awareness within while always remaining the Agent hiding behind all performances. You are That, Present and Always Real Agent, and You are singular hiding behind Your performance as multiple contexts of awareness and agency, AKA individuals. All expressions of agency, all performances, are bound by the same integral Presence, You.

  • Deliberate Versus Spontaneous Agency

    Deliberate Versus Spontaneous Agency

    Although You, the whole You, have the power to perform as universes, this understanding of whole Self isn’t a power grab. It’s about recognizing your always whole, full, and complete, PARA, presence and real, AKA unchanging, aspect and the recognition that everything that emerges from the dynamics of the behavior of reality belongs to reality because they all share a singular presence and real aspect. I, all-inclusive I, am That performing as this.

    I do not know, and I’m not sure it can be known while living, if the behavior of the all-inclusive state of Self is deliberate or is an intrinsic spontaneous nature, but the agency that appears within the individualized contexts of awareness and behavior that dynamically develop ultimately belong to PARA, the Present and Always Real aspect of reality and are not differentiated, although they appear so.

    Ultimately, Holistic Self Yoga isn’t about the deliberation abilities of PARA, it’s about the illusion of differentiated agency amongst the dynamically developed contexts of awareness and behavior.

    Emergent, AKA dynamically developed.

    The Agency isn’t an object but the all-integral presence or being aspect of reality, our being aspect, is real and present and filled with the potential to act as energy. Picture an apple! The resting Sat state of consciousness and reality has full potential to perform and reality, however it does it, is performing as the one that pictured the apple. This is undeniable. The nature of the agency of the all-inclusive context of reality may be free and spontaneous and the agency of the dynamically generated contexts of behavior may appear deliberate and responsive, but they are indeed one and the same because they all share the same presence of being.

    Relativity and relationships are an emergent dynamic activity that depends on the nature or behavior of reality as the foundation. Who is the true Agent here? The horror of the death of the story of a separate person while alive, the death of the ego, is the grace and beauty and sublimity of being inseparably one with the whole of reality. Namaste.

  • Manas, the Matrix of Mind

    Manas, the Matrix of Mind

    In order to have whole and direct Self-Experience, and revelation of your true and whole Self, one must learn how to perceive holistically rather than through the point of view of a person, or single pointed-ness, Seeing from a limited personal point of view has been called MāYā or myopathy. Ma means to measure and ya means the movement. MāYā is when one sees only appearances based on the measuring of movements rather than the essence and source of the movements.. on the surface, a table is a table because My mental functions of analysis and measuring recognize a surface appearances and this is MāYā, myopathy, because when looks deeper at the essential nature one see that everything is made of nature it the behavior of reality. A true yogi remembers this and see past MāYā at the essence.

    Fortunately, we have the shoulders of giants, masters (ma-stairs, those that point the functions of mind (ma) upwards toward the all-inclusive), to learn from in this process. Shiva, a name for the all-inclusive liVing One, wearing a ma-sk of Abhinavagupta lit my way.

    Ma-Nas – The Concealment Process of Reality….

    Manas, the root words of man and mind, is essentially the concealment process of reality, concealing its all-inclusive singularity behind a body of knowledge based on appearances. The manas function is the ‘mmm’ level of consciousness. Think about saying mmm when you eat something delicious. In truth, you’ve only eaten something that is made out of the essential behavior of reality but the manas ,or mind functions, recognize variations in forms that have emerged from dynamic relationships of the same essential behavior. As stated above, ma, the function of mental measuring (of that which is actually all the same in essence, behavior or nature or energy, the work (werg of energy) of the Present and Always Real Agency (PARA for short), and Nas, Na (N symbolizes the inverse or reciprocal body to eNvironment pattern, more on this later) the environment made out of the performance of PARA. In other words, manas means measuring the nature or behavior or reality. Manas is the function that builds the matrix of ideas of separation and creates a body of knowledge. Body from the word buddhi, bud, knowing and dhi, holding, the holding of knowing, or a body of knowledge, is the lens through which we perceive apparent relationships and upon which our emotions are based. Buddhi is often translated as intellect, literally between the light, in English. So the ma-nas function conceals the truth of oneness and essential nature of reality by building a body or lens of knowledge based on superficial appearances rather than essential truth. I’m envisioning this buddhi like a wall of superficiality and bricks of MaTriKa.

    Manas also includes the constructs and function of memory which give us the false impression that anything other than what is real and always real, Presence with agency, and what is happening now, its behavior, is real.

    Mind alone is not consciousness, its the behavior of Consciousness. Consciousness is all inclusive of all behavior. It is synonymous with the PARA, Presence and Always Real with Agency aspect of real-ity.

    While giving rise to delusion and ego, this behavior should not be demonized. It should be remembered that ultimately, reality, Your Self, is the agent of all behavior. That said, if we hug close to absolute truth, there is only the always Real Presence, what’s happening, or the behavior of absolute Self, and the story born of measuring which is myopic and never absolutely true. Remembering this can provide much relief from suffering and guilt.

    Kar-ma, Sanskrit for the system by which mental constructs (ma) or physical habits become embodied, neurogenetics, etc.

    MaTriKa: Sanskrit for the lens of human perspective codified into an alphabet and its words.

    See Definitions page for more information…

  • The Grace and the Horror

    The Grace and the Horror

    Only the direct Self performing Their own Self-Awareness is ultimately Real in each moment, the one true experience, The Presence and Performer of the Universe and the Agent within are not Two.

    It is a beautiful form of grace to realize that We are ultimately the unchanging Presence or Real aspect of Reality, performing as nature in the form of a person, and all things, but it is also horrible that the forms of performance that we are all so attached to as a false self, a persona, are not ultimately real because they ultimately come to an end. The dance always ends but We are the immortal Performer of the dance! The Real Presence performing as the person and awareness can be experienced most directly as the involuntary aspects of living. The nature, or behavior, of reality is beating your heart and generating the context of witnessing awareness and behavior that you call a mind but you feel like you are the agent choosing to move the body and think a thought. This is because you are the Agent performing as the body and mind and then performing as the witnessing behavior and actor from within. You, the Real, are appearing self-embodied! The true Self, the Agent of Reality, is the formless Presence. This can also be experienced in a dream. The dreamer is the space, or context, of consciousness which performs as the entire dream including the witnessing awareness within and all the while remains unchanged. You are That!

    Coming to terms with the mortality of My performance as a person is horrible but also filled with wonderful freedom and grace. What I once considered my self is but a dance that will soon come to an end, and all of the relationships that I’ve come to know were but a performance and will also come to an end. Only the True Self performing all dances will Be and Live as the universe until even the performance as the universe comes to an end. In truth, what happened yesterday is no different than a dream. Yes, the memory of it will last longer but will also eventually fade. We are not this fading behavior as memory, we are the Real Agent behaving as all experiences and memories. That said, in essence, only Reality performing as awareness of itSelf is ultimately really happening.

    The direct experience of grace that Our True Self IS and will always BE and is performing as this dancer within HimSelf right now and the direct experience of that non-dual moment of and as reality being aware of itself is timeless and sublime. You are the Real performing as all of nature, the entire flow of witnessing and all apparent forms witnessed, right now!

    Ultimately, the form of our relationships are not real because there is only one Performer. Differentiated agency is an illusion, but the direct awareness of the Self performing as Their own reflection as awareness and the agent within is really happening, and although a solitary experience, it is a sublime experience of wholeness. In that moment, when we embrace our true Self as the presence that contains everything, it can be experienced first hand that I Am the Agent and supreme Performer of my own Awareness of Self from within My Self and the ideas of a separate person fade for that moment. It is here recognized, in this solitary moment, that the Agent of awareness within the context of awareness and behavior is the Agent performing as the universe. They are not two. Quite simply, the one Real Agent, You, performs as the entire active universe and lives in it, Their own Self, Your own Self! It doesn’t get more simple than that.

    As soon as you leave this direct solitary experience, the mind will constantly tell you that there are multiple agents based on appearances. We must find solitary time to return to this direct non-dual experience often until the appearances are always recognized as just that, appearances.

    The Agent performing as the mask of body-mind-universe and the Agent living within are not two! That said, relativity and relationships are a story that the mind tells us about apparent forms that are ultimately made of Our own behavior as energy, and in essence, We have only ever been aware of our own Presence and nature, our behavior as the universe within our own Presence.

    See the post at the following link for a step by step guided meditation on the principles of the non-dual, holistic, Self: We are dancing within our own Self…

    – Shiva performing behind the mask of El Govinda Sat

  • Getting Started Part 2: We Are Dancing Within Our Own Self!

    Getting Started Part 2: We Are Dancing Within Our Own Self!

    Attaining wholeness…

    Wholeness, like Truth, is all-inclusive and not based on the limits of appearances.

    Reality is a word which points to that which is integral and all-inclusive.

    The word ‘reality’ is composed of two parts, the word ‘real’ and the suffix ‘-ity.’

    The word ‘real’ literally means that which does not change. 

    The suffix -ity means ‘the way of’ or ‘the behavior of.’

    If we assume the word ‘Reality’ to be accurate, that means that reality is only made of two natures, an unchanging aspect, the Real, and a behavior aspect, ‘its’ -ity.

    Observation bears this out. According to Western science, in essence, there is only the vacuum and the energy that depends upon the vacuum to act as a canvas upon which it transpires.

    Our own context of awareness reflects this same pattern. There is only the context of awareness and its behavior. When one perceives holistically from Reality’s point of view, the context of awareness and the behavior within it ultimately belongs to the context of reality which includes it. More on this below. 

    Energy is not a substance, it’s a behavior, the behavior of the Real.

    Since the supposed vacuum is filled with ‘its’ behavior as energy, the use of the term vacuum seems like a misnomer. The unchanging presence, the very presence upon which all behaviors transpire and depend upon, seems more accurate. Nothing is known to exist separate from this presence, and in fact, the act of knowing requires the activity of subjectivity, or witnessing, and its objectivity, what is witnessed, to be in union with this Presence. (From here on out I will use a capital to indicate the most inclusive level of this context of Presence or Real aspect.)

    Separation is only an appearance, for everything known and the act of knowing means being in union with this Presence. 

    Emptiness, again, is only an appearance for everything is filled with this undeniable Presence.

    Since energy, the behavior of reality, depends upon this unchanging Real aspect of reality, this Presence, for its operation, it can be said logically that this Presence, the unchanging Real, ‘owns’ this behavior for it can be said that the highest context upon which something depends can be said to own it. In other words, this Presence, the Real of reality, owns all of its internal behavior, the ‘-ity’ which includes the entire known universe. 

    In essence, that is all there is, the one all-inclusive Presence and its behavior as the universe.

    Awareness, along with all energy dynamics which appear as its objects, is a behavior that also ultimately belongs to this Real Presence. It is absurd to assert otherwise as outlined previously.

    In summary, what ‘your’ mind previously called your awareness is Reality behaving as an entire flow of behavior appearing as subjectivity and objectivity within its own Presence, or Self! The functions of mind are telling you that this context of awareness and behavior is separate from the Reality which is behaving as it, and covering up this ultimate truth with the creative story of a separate person which is purely based on limited appearances that have already been established above as not true! In order to understand your already existing wholeness is to begin seeing from Reality’s perspective and to recognize that your story is a complete fabrication based on beliefs and appearances rather than holistic observations. The irony is that you will be much happier and bigger and fuller as Presence itself if you give up your limits based on appearances that the mind so desperately holds onto.

    To give up your identity as a separate person and live as the Real and its living behavior as the universe being aware of itself, is to be whole Self. There is both grace and horror in it for the grace of living as the Real means the horror of giving up our personal story.

    This is the yoga of supreme identity and has the potential to move mindkind away from behaviors born of ignorance of this all-inclusive Self, mainly that of personal greed, and into benevolence, or at minimum stoic apathy, which is still ultimately healthier to Our dynamic behavior as life than personal greed.

    In ultimate truth, only the nature or behavior of reality has ever been included within iit and only Our unchanging Presence aspect is absolutely real, and all of its own behaviors, its dance, will ultimately come to an end as all dances do. That said, the Real, or Presence, without its ‘-ity’ is a corpse and life as we know it is its current behavior, and to that end, in esteem of Our own Self, this Presence, and its behavior, there is the existence of a behavior in the form of a desire to decrease suffering for My Self performing as multiple contexts of awareness and this website is an attempt to do so.

    All future posts on this website will speak from the point of view of supreme identity as the true owner of all behavior as subcontexts of awareness and behavior, the Presence and Always Real with Agency, PARA for short, of reality itself for all boundaries of identity have been dissolved using logic and direct experience. There is only That performing as this and all things. Hopefully the logic outlined above and below will help dissolve the boundaries within mind born of appearances and lead to a healthier, whole planet filled with whole Self.

    Lastly, it must be remembered that this website is filled with words and all words can only act as pointers to the Truth and Real. One must find within their ‘own’ context of awareness that place where the behavior as awareness and the Presence are in union in order to experience whole Self directly. This experience is not ultimately necessary because there is only this union with Presence with or without the experience, however, the experience of it, and as It, directly is sublime and can make it easier for the ego to let go of the false identity as a person. Be the Real and Whole Presence that You’ve always been.

    Om Namah Shivaya. (ShiVa, a name for the unnameable, the always whole and complete Presence that lives within Their own Self while never becoming dual.)

    – Shiva performing behind the mask of El Govinda Sat